I finally bent the effing spoon
I tried at this for a year or so and what I mean by trying is that I attended the spoon bending group through lightnet.org three or four random times this past year. reflections on this in no particular order.
I wanted to do this because, well, duh, it’s fuckin’ cool. also, because my spiritual and energy stuff is generally very ethereal and not involving something in physical form CHANGING so obviously. which isn’t true and is downright insulting to the energy work I do that often/usually clearly changes something in physical form, including my own body. but it’s not always as clear which part of someone’s health or emotional/spiritual life or relationship or what have you changed because of the energy work. even when it’s really clear it was because of the energy work, there’s still a way I can see a skeptic (sometimes though not often myself) explaining it away. this is harder to explain away, though some kid who was in my house when it happened (NOT related to me to be clear) tried anyway, the little jerk. is he invited back to my house? debatable.
(is this what middle aged people have been saying about kids from the beginning of time? that they’re little know-it-all punks who don’t know shit and should please shut up and take a seat? yes and there’s a really good reason for that.)
the facilitator said that healers are often the people who struggle bending spoons the most because we feel like we should be able to do it right away and put pressure on ourselves. yep, see above about trying at this occasionally for an entire year.
how did it happen? I just asked the spoon to bend and she was willing. she got soft and she bent and then hardened back up and there’s no way I can physically with my strength return her back to unbent.
the other part of how it happened? by now I had learned that my brain was no help and quite a hindrance in this situation so before even getting on the call I gave my brain something to think about. and while she was busy doing all her thinking over there, I asked the spoon to bend with no agenda or even need for it to happen and that’s when it happened. yeah yeah buddhist life lessons written all over it.
the last reflection - anyone can do this. unless you decide you can’t and that makes it harder.
bonus - favorite comment from a friend about this happening: “Did it bend in increments or did it go from 0 to fuckin’ twisted?” ha! it went from 0 to fuckin’ twisted in case anyone else has this question. 😄
I have to mention this little prequel to the bending spoon - the night before, I was playing cards and after shuffling my deck five or six times, I went to go set things up and found all four aces on top of the deck. the spoon bending was exciting, the aces creeped me out for a second. they were NOT remotely together before I shuffled. 😳
what’s my takeaway from all of this? mainly this - I wonder where I still limit what could happen.